i guess yesterday & today is not my beautiful day after all . words cant describe how hurt is it to be . let start about yesterday . yesterday was nothing about my family but about boifee . he make me angry atleast 5 times yesterday . just a small matter . i was so moody . but its ok . im fine bouut it . i guess , its me makin the issue bigger . because im so not in th mood . im ok w him now . baby im sorry if i scolded youu to much . youu knw , i knw laa ey b . about today . as pernormal . i wake up feed adek food . i kept disturbinq adek . yaa , i was so boring . thn after a few min she kept crying . mom say she's like that if youu keep disturbing her . haish . after adek shower . i dnt knw in a sudden she's like crying all th way . mom and her dad keep scolding her . i felt sorry for her . she cry and cry and cry . after that her dad was so angry . that cause it , its me . my fault . and he throw things . and throw something on me . that thing broke into pieces . and its like my heart is broke into pieces . i cried . it was so hurt . he says me 'pukimak' . haish . it really hurts my feeling . i went inside th room covered myself w pillow . crying all th way . and went mom cme out from the toilet . she went into th room . she scolded me she said this . ' mairah ! kaw asl ngaes2 ? salah kaw perh . kalaw kaw takk kacaw adek kaw ni takkn jdyk laa . kaw daa tahu bapak dhe takblehy kener siket kaw lagyk nak kacaw2 . nanty atok kaw balek maken rabak kaw kene .' that was wht she said . it really hurts alot . but when my grandpa came bck he didnt scold me.
mom , i hope one day youu will realise how much my love for youu that cant cost anytink and words cant describe . only god knws . im utterly dissapointed in youu . i knw its my fault . i guess youu doesnt knw how hurt is it to be abandon like this . i dnt care wht people say about youu . . infront it looks like we hate youu , bt youu dnt knw whts inside our heart . but youu reallie dissapoint us . eventhough youu didnt bring 3 of us upp well . we still love youu .
but youu mom ? i guess im just a problematic child . dpn kubur uya ma , aper akan ma buat ? laugh ? is that wht you're going to do? ya allah . wht cann i do more to more ma ? would youu show me th love i want from youu ? and cuzzy we're going thru th same path . insyaallah . one day they will realise .
